Today's #WIPSnips is the beginning of a chapter about how trying to stop running from my very queer calling led me to apply for scholarships to attend, what was at the time, the Gay Christian Network Conference.

Back in May, just before REDACTED moved away to be a priest in another state, she told me she knew that I was meant to be doing something bigger than being a part-time church assistant for the rest of my life. She knew there was some vocation my spirit longed for and she wanted to know what I was doing to get there. I haven’t told most people about that conversation. I couldn’t even bring myself to write about it after it happened because it almost broke me to be seen in that way in the midst of all my recurring frustrations about going between the church where I work and the church where I worship and not always being seen the way I crave. Not acknowledging it in a concrete way for all these months felt easier than admitting the truth she yanked out of me that day: I've been running away again.